Domestic Violins

i need redemption and i need it fast
my soul is being squashed
my programs are crashing and can no longer update themselves
everyone is laughing around me and i am smiling artificially
hoping they won't notice

it's too hot in here and too cold out there
and i'm shuffling in and out with cigarettes like a stupid cat
eyes on the clock and praying for bedtime
so i can somehow take a break that never happens
cause as soon as it starts it's
MORNING TIME AGAIN
and once again I reinvigorate the corpse
to walk the hallways some more
trudge trudge through 'cause that's all there is
but if this is all there is
i
want
out.